I could honestly go on and on about why I do believe impossible miracles can happen and do happen. And when I declare that I put my trust in God and God alone, I believe that to the core of who I am. I’ve seen God show up one too many times in my own personal life to deny that to be truth. With our country’s recent happenings, I want to speak life and hope into what looks like a disaster in our eyes. I believe God intended for the word hope to be more than just a word. I think over time, hope lost its weight and became fluff because we use it nonchalantly in our conversations. However, I’m choosing to believe that HOPE looks like this...we’re sitting at the edge of our seat, expecting it WILL happen. So I hold onto hope and put my faith in my Heavenly Father because He is the only one that makes sense and He is the only one that has the power to radically and miraculously bring forth everlasting change.
Leading up to election day, I spent a lot of time in prayer, mostly praying over our future president because I knew things were not going to be done by our strength. God ushers us to partner and partake in His plans and we are called to do our part, even if it doesn’t make sense. I had no idea who I was going to elect even til the very moment I was in the voting booth. In case you wanted to know...I also prayed for guidance and for him to reveal who I should choose. In the end, I chose Jesus and his redemptive story. I did not choose a person based on their character or even based on their stance/views on certain issues. I’ve learned over the years to not hope in a person because they will always disappoint. I choose to believe God will show up, and we will witness one of the greatest miracles of our time.
Miracles are real and are happening all around us. We just have to be willing to open our hearts, minds, and eyes to receive the fullness of God’s miracles. I am someone that was quite doubtful of miracles even though I grew up in church hearing God is a God of miracles. I wasn’t seeing it with my own two eyes, so miracles must be this far off thing that only happened in the past or in places like Africa. Well, I did go to Africa and yes crazy miracles do happen there, but I also realized that crazy miracles happen everywhere, even in our own lives!
You would think that my near death car accident would give me enough reason for me to believe in God’s miracles. And it did to some degree. However, it wasn’t until recently that I realized I completely underestimated what God really did for me and Esther. I knew it all in my head and I would say it all the time as I shared my story with people… “God saved us!”... “I shouldn’t be alive, and it’s a miracle I’m here today.” As much as I knew all these things in my head, it hadn’t transferred to my heart because I would often lose hope, get discouraged and disappointed, get frustrated with God, and so forth and so on. I’m so thankful God allowed me to feel and express all my emotions because it brought me to this very place today. I just simply trust we have a really good Heavenly Father who really loves us. He is miracle, He is love, and He is everything...so I’m only going to look to Him and Him alone.
As I reflect back on my accident, these are all the little miracles within the BIG miracle of He saved 2 lives. I have a good feeling He’ll reveal more and more as time goes by.
I am sharing this miracle story with you because I also need reminders of how real God is and how real miracles are in our present day. And I honestly get it and can so relate with every American citizen. Nothing makes sense right now. What is going to happen to us? How can anything good come of all of this? Why would something like this happen? These are all questions that used to flood through my mind repeatedly whenever unfortunate circumstances came my way. Because I’m human, these questions still come flooding into my mind from time to time, but I’m learning to capture those thoughts and throw it out. In these moments, I just simply throw up my hands and say “Okay, I give up! God you take care of it because I know you can make something happen.” And God ALWAYS shows up! Often times, it’s never what I expected or even wanted, but I’m discovering that it’s ALWAYS way better than my expectations and desires.
In the meantime, we can still do our part. We can choose to love, accept, and honor one another despite our differences. We can stand united and believe for great change and transformation for our nation. We can pray as one nation for our President Trump and trust that his heart is in the hands of the Lord, and God will turn it and have His way with it.
From my heart to yours #13
Would you stand with me in prayer for our nation and for our President Trump? Together, lets hope in Jesus our Savior and remember that His redemptive story is REAL and that redemptive story is for all of us!
Heavenly Father, we ask for your abounding peace and love to fall on this nation, and we put all our trust in your supernatural power and unfailing faithfulness! We declare that you are the King of kings and pray that you will have your way with this nation and our President Trump. Although we can’t make sense of anything right now, we ask for your help as we choose to love and let go in the midst of all this confusion. We believe for miracles because you are for us and not against us. Thank you for loving Trump as your beloved son, and may he come to know the weight of that truth and completely surrender his life to you. Thank you for loving each of us as your beloved sons and daughters, and may we also come to know the freedom that comes with that truth and allow you to have full access to our hearts. Our faith and hope is in you today, tomorrow, and every day thereafter. In Jesus name we pray...Amen!
I gave my blog a rest until I figured out my direction, actually I was waiting on God's BEST direction. After several months of wrestling with the Lord and overcoming doubt, fear, and hopelessness, I finally figured out what I wanted to share with the world...the known and unknown mission fields God has in stored for me. I quickly learned that I will be falling on my face A LOT, encountering roadblocks A LOT, and taking detours A LOT, but I also learned that I will be okay (actually more than okay...I will be BLESSED) because my Daddy up above has my back and loves me even more in those moments.
Sooooo...I thought I was set on going back to grad school, and I even spent weeks writing my personal statement and filling out my grad school application. I also had a deadline to turn in my halftime leave or possibly resignation for work because there was no way I can attend school full time and work full time. In my perfect world, I wanted to know that USC accepted me so that I could have peace of mind as I made my decision about leaving the field of teaching, but of course it's never that easy. As the deadline was nearing, I can feel the level of anxiety increasing day by day, and I didn't know what to do; I felt numb. A wise friend encouraged me to simply go with the decision that gave me the most peace and that's what I did. I didn't know if I got into grad school, I didn't know how I would financially support myself, I didn't know what in the world I was doing...I just simply made a decision in faith that my Father will lead, and I just had to keep moving forward one step at a time.
As soon as I turned in all the necessary paperwork to USC and work, that burning desire to go to school vanished...I was left confused! What do I do now??? Unknowingly, I had used grad school as a safety net to pull out of teaching. If I made the wrong decision, at least there would be something productive I would be doing. I took it back to my Heavenly Father, and He assured me that I'm heading in the right direction and I didn't miss a single step. He revealed that grad school was not it, but I needed to go through the process for a greater purpose. It was then that I realized three things: I didn't need to rely on an institution to teach me what I already knew, writing my personal statement helped me to narrow my focus, and Holy Spirit will be my teacher as I venture into the unknown and uncover my entrepreneurial spirit.
Last month I received my letter of acceptance to USC, but I kindly turned down the offer with overwhelming peace and comfort in knowing God is leading and I just simply need to follow. With only a part-time job and a desire to start a non-profit organization, I am learning that trusting and hoping in God's faithfulness is not an easy feat and I'm still a work in progress. However, I am beyond thankful that I have the privilege and honor to walk this earth consumed by His grace and mercy, and He will always come to my rescue. In FAITH I will go leaps and bounds to see God's plan unfold, in HOPE I will expect that God will fulfill His promise beyond my expectations, and with LOVE I will encounter people and strengthen relationships.
From my heart to yours #1:
I'm sure some of you are wondering, "How does this girl know she's really hearing from God?". And to be honest, I ask myself that question more often than I would like, but I learned not to sit in the place of doubt and fear for too long. I choose to first listen then MOVE. Sometimes I'm dragging my feet and other times I'm sprinting ahead, but I'm moving, even if I can't see what's ahead of me. As I'm moving, I'm intentionally putting things to a test and prayerfully watching what happens. It sounds risky and maybe a little reckless to some, but it doesn't have to be and it isn't! If your heart and gaze is positioned toward the Heavenly Father, and you are giving it your best to be like Christ, then it's not a risk! God loves us, really really LOVES us and ONLY wants the best for us, but in order for us to receive everything He has to offer, then our hearts need to provide the space to receive all His goodness. If the room is small then God can only fit so much in that cramped space, but if it's an open space with no walls then God has no limitations to move and work in our lives. What He can reveal and manifest is ENDLESS! It's simply a matter of, how much space are you willing to give up?
I'm using this space to simply share the meaningful things that burn my heart and the random things that run through my mind. Simply desiring more vulnerability and authenticity in my life.